Sometime between last June and today I turned into a Green Monster. I'm not sure exactly how this movement took over my very soul. Today as I rummaged and incredible sale at a department store that's closing down I picked up a pair of Steve Madden Shoes. They were beautiful, the color, the feel, the fit, they were perfect. As I contemplated the purchase I stopped, looked at Jennifer and said, "Do you think these are Vegan?" Jennifer quickly replied, probably not, I sighed, put the shoes down, and somehow ended up buying some crocs. Last June, I would have bought those shoes and worn them as I walked out of the store not caring or realizing I was wearing a poor innocent cow.
Rabbi Herald Kushner told a story in one of his books that hit the nail. It answered the very core of my question. How did I turn into this? I wont bother telling you the story, (code for I don't want to butcher it) but the moral stuck with me. The point of the story was to make the listener realize that one had to do good things, not because they wanted to, but because they had to. He said we do nice things because we are supposed to, we don't always do it willingly or with a smile on our face, sometimes we are forced by our religious beliefs or morals. However, conducting these acts of kindness eventually takes a toll on your heart, they begin to make you feel good, and thus over the span of your life time, you come to realize the good that your actions are causing.
When I went Veg I did it because I realized that if I did not change my lifestyle I would probably die an obese diabetic woman with hypertension, because these things all run in my family. I still had leather shoes and bags, and I really had no intension to make it an ethical issue. As the months progressed my life style changed drastically, I began to read more books on being vegan, I explored websites and talked to other veg people. Still when people would ask me why I was Vegan I would say, health concerns. However, detaching myself from meat changed me, I began to see meat as lifeless creatures not as dinner. I still remember standing at the grocery store one day, the man in front of me was buying ribs. I took one looked at the Raw meat and almost gaged. It was flesh, that man was about to eat something that was once a happy living creature (well maybe that particular creature wasn't so happy in its lifetime).
Over a half a year past when I started realizing the value of the animals I was no longer eating. When my friends would taunt me with meat, I would think to myself, I don't think I could ever eat another animal in my life. What right do I have to take their life or cut it short so I can have a meal. What right do I have to kill a creature and in defense say I need the nutrients, when I can get all the nutrients I need from plants, and vitamin supplements. Why does the golden rule only apply to humans. I'm applying that rule across the board because I would never want to be violently slaughtered and become a meal.
After I became a believer in the movement to save the animals, I also began to take compassion on good ol mother earth. I bought my last role of paper towels in January. So began my obsession with napkins of the reusable variety. I bought them in varied colors, with matching napkin wrings for those special occasions. We got some delightfully colorful kitchen towels, and I even went as far as buying reusable sandwich bags at reusablebags.com. The other day I caught myself digging through my own trash can because my roommates threw away plastic bottles. I spent about 10 minutes making sure they all made it to the blue can (No worried girls, I do it at Ken's house all the time). I LOVE RECYCLING!!!!! I still buy plastic bottles every now and then, but I usually buy the kind that gives part of the proceeds to charity, then I use the bottle for a few weeks, until I lose it or it gets lost in my car.
Ask anyone, this is a complete 180 from a year ago. My approach on life is completely different, and I still hope and pray that one day, in the distant future, when the economy isn't shit, I can open my own little place of pastries and coffee. The Kosher Vegan, bakery and coffee shop, for all your sweet tooth needs. This is the story of how I learned compassion. This is only the beginning of something beautiful, a whole hearted attempt to save the earth and all the living creatures in it. Like I said before, I will do good, and hope others will follow my lead.